I have missed a lot of things. I can’t wear tight sexy clothings. I can’t wear nice skinny shirt. I can’t shop for pants in normal shop. This started because I can’t be fussy about food. I always eat whatever is in front of me. Even when I feel full, I cannot stop eating.

Since I’ve been on my fasting. I felt great and relieved. I can actually do something crazy like this. Today is Monday. First day of work after weekend. I wasn’t actually sure I could do today.

My research said when you do this, you have to do it for a long time. Three days only water fasting is never good, because you will never reach ketosis. Ketosis is a condition in your body when you don’t have any other source of energy and thus your fat is burned as energy. In the other side, when you do only three days or less and never reach ketosis, your body will only eat your muscle knowing it’s a great source of food. Instead of losing fat, you will be losing muscle. Each of us has muscle inside our body, even when it’s covered in lots of fat. When you are in ketosis, your body will realize that it’s wrong to eat the muscle and switch to fat instead.

I am not a doctor so I can’t explain more about it, you can do your own research just to be sure and be comfortable with it. Just so you know, because of it, I cannot stop today. I am not supposed to stop. People say we are going to lose our hunger. It seems like mine is the opposite. I felt very hungry throughout the day. I thought of quitting but I couldn’t. If I quit now, I will always quit on my next one. I decided I can!

Today is Sunday. I was ecstatic. Finally, one more day has passed. Like yesterday, it’s supposed to be difficult. I woke up with growling on my stomach. It wasn’t a good feeling. Then I forgot that I was fasting, I got up as quickly as always. It got me dizzy and I had to go back down to sit on my bed. How stupid haha I literally warned people about it yesterday and I still did it.

I continued today as usual, the difference, today was raining. It was very cold I could actually feel my finger being like ice. I don’t know if it’s the fasting or what. I’ve never remembered a day in Bali can be this cold.

Today was tough. I drank less water. I couldn’t even shove 8 glasses of water inside my body. It wasn’t a good feeling at all. I almost threw up whenever I drank. Good thing I couldn’t do anything so I didn’t sweat. Although it was very boring. I spent my day watching movies without eating. It was an enormous change. I didn’t know I could do this haha.

The night was difficult. There was a piece of cake on the table. Oh my.. I know I was not hungry but I still crave food. I wanted to eat that. I figured out, it would melt in my mouth and I could enjoy every bit of it. Especially it’s been my first day. Then the closer I got to the cake, the more my body resist. The sweet sensation became disgusting in my head as I suddely saw myself being very fast eating that food. I decided not to eat the cake. I refused to be fat. I did it! I did good. I am very proud of myself. Having this kind of event is important for my progress. I have the urge to eat but I can control eat. I feel so good.

My mood was a little bit unstable. It was up down up down hahaha I almost yelled at most people I came in contact with. I didn’t say it’s easy. Oh! I also warned them in advance. It was one of many things that made me go further from people. It’s only for 720 hours anyway. I followed my dream and my heart. I really want to have my ideal weight again.

I disregard anyone that tell me the risk of water fasting. Today someone actually pissed me off by telling me what to do. I don’t know. Was it really me who get pissed or what? I was finally able to change my habit. I am happy. One thing people should concern about me is how I am actually doing, how much progress I have achieved and how am I feeling. What is so difficult about it?

I am not stupid. I am doing it for myself. I don’t need any help at this moment. I know people make joke about this. Life is made of decisions. I also don’t want to stand on the other side of the road. I don’t want to die or to be sick. I did my research. I am doing this with full conciousness and I am very careful. Please stop worrying. I know what I am doing.

I am actually a little bit afraid too. More warnings are not making things any better. I need this fasting. People can be more supportive. The word death is actually a little bit too strong to be said to me. What if you’re sick and you try to get better but instead I tell you, you are going to die! When you believe the thing that you do actually makes you better. How would you feel? It’s not gonna be good, right? Stop doing that!

I hope you can focus less at other people’s business and focus more on yourself. I believe you also have something else to do. You also have your own problem. Do yourself first. I know you want to help, please do it the right way. You can feel good without making people feel crappy about themself. Do you know that? Hahaha.. Be Wise.

Today is saturday. I checked on my scale, the screen showed 105.4. It made my morning. I drank a glass of water. I couldn’t believe myself, I could actually not eat for 24 hours. It means I have 706 days more not to eat. If you see the number, it is actually a huge number. The fast that it goes down every hour will make you feel it’s going fast. I hope I can finish it.

Today went slow. I wrote this after I finished my second day of water fasting. I was actually surprised on how well I could manage today. I didn’t feel any hunger. I just lied to you. Hahaha… I felt so hungry. There are times when I opened the fridge and looked at all my sweets. I almost lost for few times but I WON. Proven by this blog haha. Weekend has always be my frienemy for all my life.

Before when I was doing OMAD diet, weekend was easy because I have someone to share the day with me. It distracted me from eating and it worked well. Now that I am alone. I actually have nothing to do but to watch and sit all day. In fact, it is recommended because I have 0 calorie intake. It means I have no energy intake but the energy that I saved all this time as fat.

I started the day woken up without any feeling of hunger. I drank a glass of water and the day went on like usual. I began cleaning the house and bathed my dogs. I felt dizzy sometimes. Especially when I sat down for a long time and suddenly got up. My journey of the fasting got harder hour by hour. I saw people eating in front of me. It gave me a great deal of temptation to just stop. I knew I shouldn’t and I didn’t.

The evening came. I felt even hungrier than before. I don’t know actually, was it hunger or just craving things? Well still I decided to be stronger. I took a cold shower. It helped to ease the feeling inside my head and my stomach. People say real hunger comes from your throat. I want to believe that and I convinced myself that I was not hungry. I actually felt great after the cold shower.

I read more and more about water fasting afterward. You know the feeling of not being able to sleep when you’re hungry. I felt that. Until I read that when your body reach ketosis, you won’t feel any of those sensation anymore. People usually reach ketosis after 4 or 5 days of fasting. I cannot wait for that day. This is torturing and at the same time pleasing. In the end, I got tired of reading but I was still unable to fall asleep. I decided to play games and ended up falling asleep haha.

I learned that water intake for the whole day will influence the result of your diet. When you drink, you will stop feeling the hunger sensation in your body.

The first day is the most difficult right? People say, if you can finish today, you can finish tomorrow. I believe those people. I am high… Hahaha…

So I decided to do water fasting. Which means I cannot eat food at all. I promised myself that I will get my ideal weight back simply because I’m tired of being fat. The problem is I have to be prepared. I am weak to food. Now I have to be mentally prepared to refuse any food to enter my body. Second is physical preparation. Before today, I tried to eat less. I did it. I hope my body can adapt faster.

The first day was nothing out of the ordinary. It was a Friday. I did it magnificently. I could control my appetite. I actually didn’t feel any hunger but I craved lots of food. Actually, I have a concern about my success doing this fasting. The fact that tomorrow is a weekend. I always failed to control my eating on weekend. I ended up snacking or eating while watching. It is totally not good.

Well after I finished my first day of Water Fasting. I felt great. I didn’t eat for the whole day and It didn’t affect me that much. I was basically happy. I hope it will motivate me to finish my goal which is 720 hours water fasting. I tried to check the scale for the first day. Before I started, my weight was 109. After the first day, It reached 107.6. It was a good number. It definitely put a smile on my face.

It wasn’t that hard to control myself. Water was literally all I needed to finish the day. I didn’t feel tired. I did my work normally. I didn’t feel weak nor dizziness. It’s all good. At home, things got harder. I live with a housemate. He loves to eat dinner. Usually I would just cook for dinner and share the food. Now he ordered a dinner, a hamburger which is also my favorite. It was hard for me to avoid eating dinner.

I was almost given up and asked him to bring one more portion but I didn’t. I continued to do something else and it helped a lot. I finished my first day easily. Good thing right?

If you have any question, just comment below.

How is your eating habit? It is difficult to control eating habit because usually people eat what they want to eat when they want to eat. This eating habit doesn’t really stress people out. It is a real pleasure but it might not be good for health. I really like potato chips, so I eat a lot of potato chips. Literally whenever I want to eat them. The problem begins when I get pimples on my face. Worse problem begins when I gain weight. It is stressing the hell out of me.

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Today is my birthday. Like always, I’m also trying hard to hide it today. Somehow I ended up putting it in my blog. Well, not many people will read this anyway. By the way, It is fun to see people celebrate birthdays. I always envy those people who celebrate birthday with families in the restaurant. I even envy more to people who celebrate birthdays at school with their friends especially those who get surprise birthday party.

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